This is my Husband, Stuart, he was 28 years of age, when without any warning signs he hung himself in a self-rigged gallows in our outside garage in the early hours of Monday 11th September 2017. I discovered him after 2 of our three children had left for school, Suicide wasn’t on my radar, I thought he was helping his brother out with his car or worst case scenario for me was he’d walked out and left us. We’d been married for 6 years and were together coming up on 10 years. But I organised my youngest into her high chair with her milk and a rusk, put on Ben and Holly. Then I went out to the garage his Man Cave the sunlight obscured for a moment and then I saw him- hanging from the neck from a beam near the back of the Garage, back turned to me, head tilted down and to the left. At that moment; thinking back I died too! My Grief Journey began here..
It’s difficult for me to imagine the rest of my life without you.
But I suppose I don’t have to imagine it…
I just have to live it…
All are Welcome, No Judgement here, Understanding and Support offered!
Please feel free to PM me any stories of your own personal stories and your own individual grief journeys. Pictures are more than welcome too if you feel able and think it demonstrates loved and lost more than words! I’m a true believer that getting these stories out there and the survivors of these individual journey experiences, of sharing, will help those out there; sadly yet to have their world burn to the ground!
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Facebook- Karen Lee- Johnston My page is completely private due to my job but I can still get PM’s through so feel free to send me one and I’ll add you and we can talk etc.
The Main point of this project is that it becomes a release for all people on the Grief Journey, and hopefully if enough people do engage we’ll build up a source from which; other people can use it to help themselves navigate in the pitch blackness of grief. Grief is personal, its individual and there is no handbook for it, only the experiences of people who have stood there and gone down that path can give you a clue or a tip. But ultimately each journey is different and with much hope and positive energy I felt that collecting all our stories and experiences would be the best way to end the cycle of secrecy, loneliness, and my own personal feeling that I was going mad. Writing it down, talking it out has calmed those fears but it doesn’t take the grief away. But this Project will I truly hope; help those who are searching for an answer we all at some point ask but will never find! Why!?!
The answer sadly is Why Not? and as cruel and brutal as that sounds- Life is just that- BUT- Life is also beautiful and full of incrediable things and those are the things that Grief robs from us right in front of our eyes and therefore, this Project is two fold: